Blogging like a Yo-Yo

So I'm back, then gone, then back, then gone, now back.....

Hopeless much, carefactor zero.

I have so much going on, have had so much going on... have felt so much, and yet nothing at all.

Yes I know this post says nothing. It does however ask something:

What the hell is wrong with me that I cant feel anything anymore, yet feel so much?

Its like overload. Im happy and sad etc, but only to a point.

Something happened that should have destroyed me, and whilst Im not good, Im also not a useless mess.

So why not?