So I'm wondering if maybe it's time.
Time to
a) let the cat out of the bag and admit to more than just a few people that hey, i like girls (including my family and workmates and shit - you know, those people you cant hide/take things back from), and
b) give up men and go completely lezzo
But then, that would mean forsaking cock. Heaven knows i don't have that in me.
But perhaps for a little while, I could have just nice, soft, gentle, pleasant women.....
And just maybe I should grow the fuck up and REALLY be me.
Lock stock and no smoking barrels. (because barrels would remind me of cock, which i am currently on holiday from)
Friday, August 1, 2008
Full On
Posted by Epskee at 11:59 AM
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be you!
i'm me, and i fucken LOVE it.
i like girls and boys and i don't care a damn who knows or who thinks it is dir-tay or wronged.
:o)
In this day and age where bi-sexuality and lesbians are mostly accepted and embraced, I have to ask you 'what are you scared of?'
Being rejected by loved ones? Being less than 'perfect' by others?
Also, trust, communication, honesty, and all that other stuff is still applicable in a girl-girl r'ship.
Is the issue behaviour? or the sex of someone?
kitty - i AM me, and i love it.
ms smack - im not scared.
really, its that there are lots of parts to me, and i enjoy the massive scope that my life entails. I love slumming it with my westie bogan mates, as well as fine dining with my north shore snobettes. I like being highly intelligent and looked up to by my collegues at work, and hanging out watching trashy tv in my pjs with my mates.
Don't even start me on the cultures and religions that clash, its enough that their status' and education don't blend. I like being the different parts of me with different people. And as "accepted" as it is in some parts of society, it isn't in others. Regardless, once its said, it can't be unsaid. And I'm really happy with my relationships as they are. I dont want to fix things that aren't broken.
Its the change, and potential loss of what is so great that has held me back. And for what gain?
And don't say "if they are truly your friend they'll accept how you are" because while Im sure they would accept it, it just wouldnt be the same. Even if they aren't "true" friends and dont accept me, so what? I cant have "fake" friends that make me happy?
Maybe its just that I'm not succeeding at reconciling these parts of me within myself?
Damn, light bulb moment or what?
Fantastic light bulb moment, mate.
Keep processing it, bit by bit.
xx
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